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Poetry

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Just Writing What Im Feeling Cuz Its Always Hard 2 Explain

just writing about relationships again.
-Hurt, hurt, felt over and over again through different times and different men. Hurt is felt once again. Pain from the games played plus attention always on them.Hating the chase is the main reason for complaints. Hurt, hurt, felt over and over again through different times and different men. Hurt lies, betrayal, plus torment leaves hurt felt all over again.
-True, thoughtful, lovely, mature is the card that's dealt before learning and knowing much more. In the end that's what leads females to think that they're all the same. But this is falsely thought because pf pain and hurt. Troubled time between where ignorance becomes more bliss than it seems. Reminisce historical events considered as the past when thoughts were made that hurt wouldn't end, to hurt wouldn't last. Unfortunately, thoughts could be true because: Hurt, hurt, felt over and over again through different times and different men. Hurt is felt once again. Pain from the games played plus attention always on them.Hating the chase is the main reason for complaints. Hurt, hurt, felt over and over again through different times and different men. Hurt lies, betrayal, plus torment leaves hurt felt all over again.
And how i see pain:
-I swear its like i never get tired of writing about how much people cause me pain, but its funny how i can still write about sex, and satisfaction, and all that dumb shit. I think that is what puts me in these bad situations. What if i was really having sex all the time, think goodness im a virgin cause this would be some shit. I wouldn't even write about pain. I would write about how stupid i feel to think a nigga loved me or about regret. I would be in a hectic situation with myself like half the young chicks i know having sex. I've always said I would wait til I turn 18 so that if I got knocked up I wouldn't resent my child for taking away my teen years and I wouldn't have regrets. I would feel depressed and low if I started having sex young because I know it would be for the wring reasons. You can never judge a person because yes they may be dumb for getting themselves in certain situations, but whose to say they knew the outcomes of they actions or at least the consequences. Everyone has their ups and downs.The best thing to do is think positive.
-Example 1, yeah i got kept back in 9th grade. I let high school, the idea of love and life catch up with me.I went from honor roll to straight C's, to barely passing. Its hard to balance but most importantly its hard to know what ahead leaving you to learn for a mistake. There was a point in my life where i didn't know how to love myself, when i hated the idea of living another day. It sounds crazy as shit, but I was just depressed and looked for a building of self esteem through that love of people around me. When the first person I ever loved cheated on me and he was my first boyfriend that just made things a little bit worst. But I then realized I could only count on myself at that point. But by then it was too late to improve my status in high school grades wise. As much as anybody wouldn't like to admit it, everyone begins to question existence and becomes depressed i know for a fact.......there is so much more but it becomes more personal and about other people so..there you go there's how i've been feeling.