DIARY>>>THAT SHIT

See all I wanna do is be relevant,
Just tell me that I ever meant anything more,
That you could ever see me and you in another light,
But its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man,
see all of them have made you incapable of a first impression,
what it do is I channel my aggression with no cable or antenna,
Just intentions to impress you if capable,
Hoping that the material possesions can materialise to a better you,
Cars, nothing I drive can drive you out of this state of mind,
For such an ugly picture and,
Money, nothing I buy can buy more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it,
Diamonds, a girls best frienf is what they say but believe me with the right allegience shorty you gonna shine anyways,
and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary,
the day before is better than the present,
so anyone presented in her presence is doing these life sentences,
theres no key for release,
no reason to be around,
her minds in the clouds,
she writes it all down,
in MY diary,

Today Sucks Major Ass

So its not raining but its like that awkward in between stage where it looks like its about to rain, you know? Kinda like my life...wow i haven't smile all day. Thats so unusual for me. I also have never felt regret for anything I've done in my life at all because its either been worth the experience or has given me a moment of clarity and gave me an awesome learning experience letting me understand my wants in life and my dislikes.I cant believe i let myself doubt myself for a moment. I know i make stupid decisions but im usually okay with that shit, u know?...Inty way if dis chick dont get out my ear.....(jojo)

Just Another day @ the Beach

I hate the way i feel right now.feel like a wave just crashed over my intuition.question is 'am i gonna let it drown me or am i gonna let that wave pull me out and take me on a new journey and learning experience' it kinda sucks if the wave ruins what im trying gain and washes me on shore with nothing 2 show for trying.not in the mood to lose my jewelry at this beach..maybe i shouldn't have went looking for another wave.just another day at the beach.hopefully i leave the beach after a beautiful sunset rather than because it starts to rain.♥

They saaaaaaay its because of my age girl..but age aint nothin but a numba

......THAT MATTERS LMAO
i be damned i date someone younger than me...I can let 1 or too years younger slip by..but really young enough to make a song about it aint cute lmao....I'm dumb ha ha....N silent study chillin wit da girls b4 enviromental science....

Shakera Briana..this trick

she think she is so fly
talking bout..."write a blog a bout me?"
like she da shit
n she clearly aint
she think she is all dat in a bag of chips
but she def not
she always be begging for food
hungry as shit
This heifer
wit her skinny bony ass
n then she over here laughing when the teacher clearly told her dat she should not be talking to no one.
N now she wanna write something irrelevant :
Otay & this be that Pritsy Bxtch otha known as "SHAY"
Ebz is jus= my #1 HATER ! Nuff SED .
Yes in she on my blog......but I'm hating...
"Inty Wayz"...fall back
This trick....hood rat(jk)spelling prissy wrong n shit in its supposedly her nickname...lmao.....really "Otay" wow...she's classy..ha ha.
signed yours truly,
Ebz City

"Pain is Just Weakness Leaving the Body"

This is not a poem.
What should I say to my readers today?..aha if i have any.
So I'm in my last quarter of senior year and I'm stressing like crazy cause i got finals and tests coming up.
Right now I'm in study hall wit my right:Tika and my "every now n then": Courtney
I miss the winter. I know I sound crazy but I am so its okay lol.
But for real the winter is crack...well it looks like it lmao
Maybe cause I can cover up my body more in the winter and I love being able to snuggle up in watch movies and go to mad celebrations cause of all the holidays in the winter.
The winter is a lot more beautiful as well.. Its living across from fanklin park that got me hooked when i was younger.
Seeing all the snow on the bare trees and hearing water run down the melting icicles.
Those little things is what I miss about the winter.
I never get sick during the winter either because I stay going out to different places with friends to get hot chocolate, warm cider, and egg nog.
Or partying with the eggnog n henny
N Burning to keep warm...
The good old days...Damn i miss the winter..
The summer is the season i get sick cause i be inside with everybody and they're germs tryna get my share of the air conditioning lmao..
In the summer is the freaking stinkiest season of the year because for some reason people seem to lose all since of personal hygiene.
So I just realized that I've been rambling and that everything I've written has nothing to do with the title of this blog haha.

So the reason that "Pain is Just Weakness Leaving the Body" is the title of my blog is because it keeps coming up in my life that its just destiny to learn from mistakes..You go through a lot of bullshit(pain) to learn from mistakes..but it just makes you just a Lil' stronger of a person.

Okay so my next blog probably will be a poem about this one dude in particular because he doesn't think i will write about him. and i like him that much to prove him wrong lmao.

So i covered all my grounds..I explained my blog title...gave you a random fact about my self(i love WINTER), and gave you a preview of my next blog...So if you have any suggestions hit me up.

Steps 2 Please Me..(Made b4 I lost my V)

U'll...
Whisper in my ear
Tell me my spot
I'll tell you if i like it
Then make you like it a lot
U'll...
Whistle on my neck as a tease then kiss
Nibble on my ear, then suck on my lips
U'll...
Hug my body tight with your hands between my thighs
And leave my body with warmth
Making me want to moan with sighs
U'll..
lightly touch my cheek with the back of your finger
While letting me release your fears, your stress, your anger.
U'll ...
Start above my naval, then make your way down,
Knowing im ready when i begin making sounds.
U'll...
Get me all anxious
Not thinking I could last
Got me taking off your clothes for you
So you could "spank dat ass"lmao
When you get this far you'll know that I've been pleased
These are the steps it takes to uncross these knees.